a few days

i'm a few days in and still going strong i guess. there have been a few binges but i've purged them directly after. it's been hard but so far i think i'm doing okay. the weather sucks and have made the roads extremely crappy to drive on so i haven't been to the gym a few days later. i've been keeping myself busy - playing games, working out, reading, writing, watching thinspo shows like antm and trying to get my mind off a certain boy. i am sick of being fat, i am impatient to just take the weight off. let's see how long i can keep the motivation.

So it's been awhile

So it's been awhile. My plans for thinspo sort of fell through when my family caught wind about it and got all suspicious.. watching everything I did. It's been rough but I think I am back on track with smarter moves and plans. I am more determined than ever now to lose weight dramatically. I've been so depressed about it I haven't actually weighed myself in months. I am going to go on a 10 day fast or go to under 500 cal a day if I can handle it and then I'll weigh myself. I just want the impact of my actual weight right now to be less drastic than it would be if I weighed myself now. I'll be back.