i am overweight

my blog name is brooke. i am 5'4", 24 years old and overweight. my all time highest weight was 205 pounds. i currently weigh 177. i lost all of that weight since january and yes, it's awesome but it's not enough. obviously i'd love to be thinner. as thin as i can be. i joined a gym but it's been hard. yes, i work out a lot. every day if i can. i have a personal trainer and she's great. but, my will power has been hard to fight but i want to be skinny. no one around me really understands. all of my skinny friends are treated differently. they always get the boy, look better in their clothes and have more confidence. my calorie intake has been downgraded from a good 2000 calories a day to 1700 - but to be honest if i can do it, i go way lower. under a thousand. 500. less if i can get away with it. i am a very active person these days. i have a lot of friends.. i work.. i go to the gym. but it's not fast enough and there are always temptations. i work at a convenience store where it's pretty much candy/junk food.. etc. i have learned that living off of redbull (sugar free) is easy but it makes me hungrier. i tell myself.. this is mental. hunger is mental.. just fight it. but it's like a drug. i want to get to the point where i am hungry and LIKE it. i just ate cheese and crackers.. and i feel so guilty for it. i feel disgusting. i need help .. and motivation and support that no one around me is willing to give. i know this lifestyle is frowned upon but i want to lose the weight fast and keep it off. stop eating as much. i want to get skinny and stay skinny. help me.

is there a group blog or something i could join?

anyway.
hw: 205
lw: 170
cw: 177
gw: 115

i have a long way to go, but i'm willing to do whatever it takes.